Ups and downs

When I say that I mostly mean downs, but I am trying to stay positive here.
Today I took Zander to the dentist for some fillings. I already felt terrible about allowing my 3 year old to get cavities, but we smiled through it and went in September to get the fillings. The dentist gave him an oral sedative, which did nothing but make him run around like a crazy man all day, we cancelled the appointment and could not schedule and IV sedation until now. We went in today and found out that in addition to the fillings he needed he also needed his front 2 teeth capped because they were thin and the nerves were in danger of being exposed. I signed the paper and then I cried, alot. I feel like a huge failure as a mother here.
He came through just fine and was excited that he could feel immediately that the Dr. had made his teeth bigger and stronger. He has been "wiggly" all day due to the effects of anesthesia, so I have tried to keep him calm.

This after noon I went to see my urologist, who was supposed to get all the records of tests done by my previous urologist this summer and go from there, but somehow he decided if he was taking over my care he wanted to re-do all the tests. These tests are time consuming, and to be honest they hurt like heck. I cried again. I was then told that they could schedule the first test Thursday the 18th at 10:30. I told them I am starting a new job on the 10th and will be off by 3:30 every day, could they work around that..... "No, we only do these procedures on Thursdays between 10 and 11" I said Okay, can you put me on the cancel or no show list? "No, we don't have one, do you want the procedure done or not?" Of course I have to get it, but I am afraid I will loose my job. I cried even harder yet. I did hold it together until I got into the hall, but then I lost it. I sat down and just cried. A nice old man who had heard the whole thing came up to me and said that he would pray for me, and that things would work out. He talked to me until I was able to smile and the tears stopped.

The ups are that Adam and I are doing well, he is enjoying school. Aidan is happy and healthy, and Zander is the tornado that I love.
I would give anything for a friend here, just someone to sit and chat with, but this city does not do that I guess, at least not where I live.
I am just sad, tomorrow will be a better day I am sure, I will try to post then with some happy thoughts!

Holiday fun...

Our holiday has been the most fun few weeks of this year, by far! Aidan got out of school on December 20 for Christmas break, the other 3 kids arrived on December 22, which was a day we have been counting down to for months! Their arriaval brought all sorts of excitement, and in that excitement a little bit of chaos, but it was a good chaos, all 7 of us were happy and super excited!

On Christmas eve we went out to Adam's parents house and met up with Sister Jen and her 3 kids. We had a White Elephents gift exchange which was all sorts of fun. The girls had a battle over some biolage hair product, and the boys battled over frisbee's and footballs. Zander took up the strategy of just sneaking around when people were not looking to switchfor the 2 or 3 gifts he really wanted. The whole thing was adorable and fun! After the fun day with mom mom and pop pop we went over to visit our great friends Dirk and Racheal Harper. We visited, exchanged cookies and love, and it was a great day all in all.

Christmas morning came and with our normal rules (Kids can come out of their bedrooms from the time we tuck them in Christmas eve night until we knock on their doors Christmas Morning) I told Dylan to go in and wake up the younger kids at about 6:30. I got a scream of "Jen, Vomit emergency!" and came running. Apparently Aidan Wolfe felt sick but thought he could hold it in and by the time he lost it he couldn't get to the bathroom, so he just leaned over the middle bunk in our bunk bed and puked all over the floor. He of course didn't come to alert anyone because he had been threatened with terrible things if he came out of his room, so he didn't, and left it for mom to clean up in the morning..... Fantastic! So Christmas fun got put off a little while as I cleaned up the disgusting mess that decided to give us a Christmas surprise. So after a good shower and a change of clothes we were ready for our festivities!

Here is the big pile of presents for our family

Everyone got just what they wanted... Lyndsay got good running shoes, Dylan an innerframe backback for a hiking/camping trip him and Adam are planning. Aiden T. got his covetted camelback, Aidan W. got the bike he has wanted for many months, and Zanders prize was a spongebob painting book (from his stocking) He also got a VSmile game system which he loves. Everybody is in heaven

Our new years was fun as well, but that will be for another post... maybe tomerrrow!!