We were all geared up for a great weekend around here. Yesterday I had to go into town (about 45 min. drive to get the results from the abdominal CT scan the week before. Since we were driving all that way we decided to have some fun and take the boys to see a movie and eat. We got to the theatre and decided on "Monsters Vs. Aliens 3D" which the boys were mucho excited about. The movie was OK, not great for the adults, but not bad as far as kids movies go. The kids LOVED it! Zander didn't make a noise other than once to get up to use the bathroom. He sat in his seat quietly the entire movie, and was perfect the entire time. That alone is worth 6 bucks to me!
After the movie we ran by the imaging office to pick up the CD and reports of my tests so that I can take them to my new Dr. on Monday. I know these reports are for Dr's and the patient really shouldn't even read them, and I was being a good girl because all those reports ever do is freak you out! (Yes they do!) Of course my husband is the curious kind, and he opened the envelope and read the report. It turns out that I have a lesion on my liver, my spleen is enlarged, I have a large cyst on my ovary... there were a few other things that meant nothing to mean... just medical nonsense. I also still have Chrones disease which is acting up. This test showed that I do NOT have any lesions or perforations of my intestines and that is very good news. The other stuff I don't have a clue how bad those things are, but I am scared..... really scared. I have had chrones for a long time but this in the first time in my adult life, and since I had children, that I have felt there may be something serious wrong in my body. The word malignant came up somewhere around my liver in the report. Nothing for sure, just for my Dr. to check into it further. That terrifies me. The thought of even a minor surgery terrifies me now that I have children to take care of. I don't want to go under anesthesia and take on those risks when I have children that I need to be around for. I have a husband, who is my absolute best friend, that I want and DESERVE to spend many many more years with. My husband doesn't deserve to loose the happiness we have or to be left to raise our children on his own. I know I am going way over what will logically happen here, but as I said before, I am scared.
Saturday was going to be a great day..... we had some extended family coming over for a birthday. I will get into more detail on this in another post.... don't want to let any cats out of the bag at this point :)
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
Lots of random thoughts and updates here.
I know, I know.... you can all yell at me for talking so long to post (a few already have, but I still love ya!)
My reason (no excuses here!) is that my computer crashed last week, the hard drive went bad right in the middle of my last week of algebra. I was a basket case, stressed as can be. No one else had a computer with the Microsoft office 2007 programs that I needed to use to open the assignments, type in my work and send them back to my teacher. I could have gotten a mean teacher that would not accept any work in the improper format, but mine was very understanding. It is clear in the course that formatting is part of your grade, so I did loose some points, but I passed, I ALMOST got an A in the class (I would have actually made it if the computer had not broken!) So besides that being really annoying, I lost all my pictures and videos and have bean a bit down about that and didn't feel much like posting.
Most of you know, but here are pictures finally.... Aidan had a great fall and broke his arm not only once, but broke both bones in his lower arm. He was at the playground a few blocks for my in-laws house (where we are STILL staying!) He is often allowed to walk there by himself, he knows all the safety rules and is very responsible with them. So that morning he was there without a parent. He said he was swinging and did a "totally wicked" jump off the swing and just went a little further than expected and landed on the stairs on his arm. A nice man that had his kids there called me, but I didn't know the number so I didn't bother to get off the phone with my sister... ooops! So then the nice man (it is a pretty close knit community thank god!) drove Aidan home and told me that he thought it might be broken. Adam was out at the time with our only car so I gave him so ibuprofen and put ice on it, and in a half hour or so he said it felt much better. It was bruised, but the swelling had come way down with the ice. So I waited. After dinner I asked him how it was feeling and he said it only hurt if he bent his arm a certain way. He could wiggle all fingers, wasn't very swollen, and the bruising was not that bad, so we all decided to sleep on it. Adam made him a very custom splint out of a paint stir stick and ace bandage, and off to bed we went. Aidan didn't make a peep all night and woke up early running through the house yelling "my arm feels perfect, dad fixed it!" I was relieved and didn't think too much about it. He continued to do great as far as pain, swelling, bruising.... the only complaint was that it hurt when the splint was off. I mostly thought that was for attention. His dad came by a day or 2 later to see him and begged me to take him for an X-ray. He is a worrier, but I humored him because he is Aidan's dad of course. So I took him in to urgent care, they did the xray, and said "oh, you will have to go to see a pediatric orthopedist, this is a worse break than normal........ of course! So we went to the specialist, the checked him and his Xrays out and showed me how Aidan had broke clean through the bigger bone in the lower arm, and buckled the other bone. It does not go through his growth plate, so he will be just fine :)
SOOO, he is in a cast for a month... no bike riding, no swimming (of course there is a FREE water park where we are living!) no playgrounds, running, jumping, or just plain being a boy!
The funny part was after the Dr. finished the cast he patted Aidan on the head and said I bet you won't be jumping off swings anymore, and Aidan of course says "oh if I could do a jump that cool again I sure would!! So here are the pictures of the super cool green cast... finally!
Zander is fabulous, he is bar none, the funniest 2 year old I have ever met. He has his daddies personality, and loves to do anything rough and crazy. Rides on daddies motorcycle are the best thing ever, and the kid spends hours at the park with one or both of us almost every day! He is coming along on potty training, learning his ABC's, counts to 20 and loves to sing. His favorite songs are the opening song from scrubs (which is so cute I had to put it on his baby MP3 player), and the song Anne Hathaway sings in the movie Hoodwinked. He is still a lover and his favorite thing to do is snuggle. Any time his daddy is laying down anywhere, no matter what Zander is into at the time, if Daddy holds his arms out towards Zan the kid will drop whatever he is doing and run to his dad. He will then lay on top of his daddy, on his tummy, put his head on dad's shoulder, and tuck his little arms in between his stomach and dad's. It is so dang cute! He also can't start the day off right without coming in to my bed in the mornings for a drink and some snuggling.... he will lay there and mimic every thing I do. If I run my fingers down his face, or kiss he little button nose, he does it right back to me. That must be one of my favorite times of the day lately!
I have been homeschooling Aidan along with going to school myself since the beginning of January. Aidan is doing great, he is very smart and always gets his work done quickly and well. We have enjoyed this time together, just me, him, and Aidan.... but this has stretched on longer than I wanted it it to, and I am starting to feel like I am either not challenging him enough, or I am holding him back depending on how I approach it. He is currently working at a 5th grade level in math and English, 4th grade in science, he has taken an interest in some local history, so we have worked on that even though it is not in any curriculum I have found for his age group. He should be in 3rd grade, and the only thing he is doing 3rd grade level work on is handwriting. So we have made the decision together to allow him to attend the school right down the road from us. We are staying with my in-laws in this "community" called Anthem. Basically they want to have everything you need without ever leaving the community. There is a Safeway, a gas station, parks, water parks, pools, and even a school without ever leaving the safety and boundaries of the neighborhood. So this week Aidan and I will look into the school and see if the gifted program they have is a fit for us, so he may be back in school and hanging out with friends soon :) This is bittersweet for me. I love hanging with him, and watching him learn (holy cow I cannot believe how the kid picks things up...... I kind of feel like he would "self teach" just by reading the text if I let him, and he has done just this thing when he wants to work ahead. But the poor boy is feeling a little bored without the interaction of kids his age. He thrives on that, and he needs it. During this time of transition I have a hard time providing that basic necessity for him. We are not members of a church, I do not reach out and make friends that I know I will be moving away from, our only real activity is our weekly trip to the Coolidge library.
On another note with Aidan he is doing very well with all of his emotional issues. We have found a medication combo that is working well, and he is a normal happy 9 year old. No more talk of suicide, visiting his dad for a few days every few weeks. There are still some issues that he has, but he has Adam and myself as well as a counselor and we are all there for him. Thanks for all the prayers that I know came from alot of you on this subject!
We are visiting my parents right now. It has been a fantastic little break, and I will be sad to leave tonight. My dad shaved his entire face for the very first time in my life, and holy cow does he look like his fabulous sisters!!!! (Lori I miss hanging out with you. You were such a rock for me this past year, and I loved every minute that I got to spend with you and Jim!)
We had a picnic at woodland park on Saturday, the boys had a great time.... it is so sweet how they slide holding hands :)
My reason (no excuses here!) is that my computer crashed last week, the hard drive went bad right in the middle of my last week of algebra. I was a basket case, stressed as can be. No one else had a computer with the Microsoft office 2007 programs that I needed to use to open the assignments, type in my work and send them back to my teacher. I could have gotten a mean teacher that would not accept any work in the improper format, but mine was very understanding. It is clear in the course that formatting is part of your grade, so I did loose some points, but I passed, I ALMOST got an A in the class (I would have actually made it if the computer had not broken!) So besides that being really annoying, I lost all my pictures and videos and have bean a bit down about that and didn't feel much like posting.
Most of you know, but here are pictures finally.... Aidan had a great fall and broke his arm not only once, but broke both bones in his lower arm. He was at the playground a few blocks for my in-laws house (where we are STILL staying!) He is often allowed to walk there by himself, he knows all the safety rules and is very responsible with them. So that morning he was there without a parent. He said he was swinging and did a "totally wicked" jump off the swing and just went a little further than expected and landed on the stairs on his arm. A nice man that had his kids there called me, but I didn't know the number so I didn't bother to get off the phone with my sister... ooops! So then the nice man (it is a pretty close knit community thank god!) drove Aidan home and told me that he thought it might be broken. Adam was out at the time with our only car so I gave him so ibuprofen and put ice on it, and in a half hour or so he said it felt much better. It was bruised, but the swelling had come way down with the ice. So I waited. After dinner I asked him how it was feeling and he said it only hurt if he bent his arm a certain way. He could wiggle all fingers, wasn't very swollen, and the bruising was not that bad, so we all decided to sleep on it. Adam made him a very custom splint out of a paint stir stick and ace bandage, and off to bed we went. Aidan didn't make a peep all night and woke up early running through the house yelling "my arm feels perfect, dad fixed it!" I was relieved and didn't think too much about it. He continued to do great as far as pain, swelling, bruising.... the only complaint was that it hurt when the splint was off. I mostly thought that was for attention. His dad came by a day or 2 later to see him and begged me to take him for an X-ray. He is a worrier, but I humored him because he is Aidan's dad of course. So I took him in to urgent care, they did the xray, and said "oh, you will have to go to see a pediatric orthopedist, this is a worse break than normal........ of course! So we went to the specialist, the checked him and his Xrays out and showed me how Aidan had broke clean through the bigger bone in the lower arm, and buckled the other bone. It does not go through his growth plate, so he will be just fine :)
SOOO, he is in a cast for a month... no bike riding, no swimming (of course there is a FREE water park where we are living!) no playgrounds, running, jumping, or just plain being a boy!
The funny part was after the Dr. finished the cast he patted Aidan on the head and said I bet you won't be jumping off swings anymore, and Aidan of course says "oh if I could do a jump that cool again I sure would!! So here are the pictures of the super cool green cast... finally!
Zander is fabulous, he is bar none, the funniest 2 year old I have ever met. He has his daddies personality, and loves to do anything rough and crazy. Rides on daddies motorcycle are the best thing ever, and the kid spends hours at the park with one or both of us almost every day! He is coming along on potty training, learning his ABC's, counts to 20 and loves to sing. His favorite songs are the opening song from scrubs (which is so cute I had to put it on his baby MP3 player), and the song Anne Hathaway sings in the movie Hoodwinked. He is still a lover and his favorite thing to do is snuggle. Any time his daddy is laying down anywhere, no matter what Zander is into at the time, if Daddy holds his arms out towards Zan the kid will drop whatever he is doing and run to his dad. He will then lay on top of his daddy, on his tummy, put his head on dad's shoulder, and tuck his little arms in between his stomach and dad's. It is so dang cute! He also can't start the day off right without coming in to my bed in the mornings for a drink and some snuggling.... he will lay there and mimic every thing I do. If I run my fingers down his face, or kiss he little button nose, he does it right back to me. That must be one of my favorite times of the day lately!
I have been homeschooling Aidan along with going to school myself since the beginning of January. Aidan is doing great, he is very smart and always gets his work done quickly and well. We have enjoyed this time together, just me, him, and Aidan.... but this has stretched on longer than I wanted it it to, and I am starting to feel like I am either not challenging him enough, or I am holding him back depending on how I approach it. He is currently working at a 5th grade level in math and English, 4th grade in science, he has taken an interest in some local history, so we have worked on that even though it is not in any curriculum I have found for his age group. He should be in 3rd grade, and the only thing he is doing 3rd grade level work on is handwriting. So we have made the decision together to allow him to attend the school right down the road from us. We are staying with my in-laws in this "community" called Anthem. Basically they want to have everything you need without ever leaving the community. There is a Safeway, a gas station, parks, water parks, pools, and even a school without ever leaving the safety and boundaries of the neighborhood. So this week Aidan and I will look into the school and see if the gifted program they have is a fit for us, so he may be back in school and hanging out with friends soon :) This is bittersweet for me. I love hanging with him, and watching him learn (holy cow I cannot believe how the kid picks things up...... I kind of feel like he would "self teach" just by reading the text if I let him, and he has done just this thing when he wants to work ahead. But the poor boy is feeling a little bored without the interaction of kids his age. He thrives on that, and he needs it. During this time of transition I have a hard time providing that basic necessity for him. We are not members of a church, I do not reach out and make friends that I know I will be moving away from, our only real activity is our weekly trip to the Coolidge library.
On another note with Aidan he is doing very well with all of his emotional issues. We have found a medication combo that is working well, and he is a normal happy 9 year old. No more talk of suicide, visiting his dad for a few days every few weeks. There are still some issues that he has, but he has Adam and myself as well as a counselor and we are all there for him. Thanks for all the prayers that I know came from alot of you on this subject!
We are visiting my parents right now. It has been a fantastic little break, and I will be sad to leave tonight. My dad shaved his entire face for the very first time in my life, and holy cow does he look like his fabulous sisters!!!! (Lori I miss hanging out with you. You were such a rock for me this past year, and I loved every minute that I got to spend with you and Jim!)
We had a picnic at woodland park on Saturday, the boys had a great time.... it is so sweet how they slide holding hands :)
My little Monkey
I have had some emotional moments this weekend. My dad and I were sitting in the living room on Saturday watching James Taylor live..... James Taylor is music that just reminds me of my daddy every time I hear it. My dad had to go and talk about which songs were the most important to him, even so far as to tell me what he would like played at his funeral. I hate to think about these things and still refuse to believe I could possibly loose these two incredibly important people in my life, but I could not help it. I found myself thinking of sitting in a room alone watching the James Taylor Live DVD we were watching, except that in this thought of mine I had lost my dad, and I just started crying just thinking about that. I love my parents very much, my dad has always been counted on my list of not only family that I love, but friends that I love as well. They are both amazing people, I am so lucky to have them as my parents!
Me and my sweet Zander ............... the poor kid was falling asleep in the bath
Zander was using Papa's "back to life" machine, so cute!
Seriously can you believe how much my dad looks like his sisters now?
I hope you are all well, leave me a comment, or an email to let me know.
Jen
Jen
Saturday, March 7, 2009
6 fabulous years ago today
Adam and I went in to see his CPA to get our taxes done. While we were at it we got married….. I bet that is not one you hear every day! Our CPA also happened to be a bishop, and a friend. He married us in a very special and very simple ceremony. It is a day I will never forget!
It is a special day that you get to marry your best friend, and I think there are a lot of people who miss out on that experience altogether.
We had wanted to get married for a while; we had gone back and forth over what to do, neither of us wanted a big or even medium size wedding. We had both had that experience in the past, and it ended painfully for both of us. We felt that the money we would spend would be a waste, and neither of us are the type of people who really need an audience to make things real. After a month or so of debating, do we just invite our kids and parents, but then we have to invite Adam's sister, and her kids, then we would have to invite my sister and her husband and kids. After that we would have to invite our closest friends, and then they would all want to bring a guest…. Do you see how this can get out of hand? It is not that I didn't want all of these people around, but we decided that this marriage was for us and us alone, and everyone else would understand.
We planned a fabulous trip to Vegas, just the 2 of us. We ordered rings that we loved, had our names and the date inscribed on them, and were good to go. Then Adam's parents decided that they wanted to go to Vegas to, and hey, why not go together, and they would pay for our trip if we drove in our car….. Hard to resist. But that threw a wrench into our secret wedding plan. We went to Vegas, but we did not get married, we had the date buffed out of our rings and took some time to regroup.
Then came the awesome idea of Adam….. Our CPA. He would be happy to marry us, and we asked our favorite of his office workers to be witnesses for us. We said vows from our heart, we were able to wear casual clothes, spend no money, and offend no one. Once we were married we picked up all of our kids and took them out to Denny's for dinner, during which we told them that "hey, guess what? We got married today" The kids were all very excited, maybe a little scared, but we quickly melded in to one of the most loving and successful blended families that I have ever seen. We all have a great level of love and respect for every other person in this family, and that is a huge blessing!!
Earlier this year Adam asked me if I would like to renew our vows and have a ceremony for friends and family. I thought long and hard. I knew that deep down Adam didn't care much; our love for each other has never faded, so we feel that our vows are still very strong. Adam thought as a girl I might really want the traditional wedding, and may feel jipped because we choose not to go that route. I came to the conclusion that if something isn't broke, why fix it.
6 years (and lots of tests) we love each other more than that day in 2003. We have had our rough spots, but we have done nothing but learn from them. Our love is strong, and I believe that will stay the case for the rest of our lives.
HERE"S TO YOU LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!! Together forever, Ayla and Jondalar!
Best friends, sometime in 2002
Durango California! Early 2002 ??
In the hospital, our little piece of perfection has arrived!
Me and my love June 2007
You can't but be IN LOVE in Hawaii
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