so much to say...

Life has been so busy lately that I have not kept up on this at all. Aidan does have ADHD for sure, he is now taking straterra for it and seems to be doing well. He is also in counseling once a week. He can only see his dad under my supervision, which means that I get to hang out with my ex husband... what fun! My stepkids are here this week, which is usually a good feeling, but this week I am really down. I feel like Lyndsay is fake with me. I don't know if there is any basis to this, but her mom told her dad that she doesn't want to come for the 6 week summer visit next year, and my feelings have been terribly hurt since. Dylan told me today that Lyndsay has her mom convinced that Zander is a huge crybaby... I asked why and he said that they just sit over there like 2 teenagers comparing Zander and her baby Conor. It drives me nuts. Lyndsay is so sweet when she is here, she really reaches out to me, she asks to babysit Zan, and offers to do it for free, but if I am to believe Dylan she then goes and tells her mom how much she hates it, and how I am a no good mother, and tells her mom all my faults in order to build her own mom up. I am just sad about this. I love these kids, all of them. I don't want ot have a copetetion with the 2 babies..... no 2 babies are the same, they all whine or cry at some point, and for different reasons. It is frustrating to not know the truth. My husband is working tons of extra hours, and we are making a whole lotta nothing. I applied for a job at the hospital as a medical transcriptionist today... wish me luck, I need to brush up my typing skills!