The waiting game

You would thing that after the last year I would be pretty darn good about waiting things out but unfortunately I am not getting much better at this.
Adam finished his classes and re-took his LSAT. We don't know the score yet, but he feels very confident that he did well. To apply to law school you have to register with a centralized center, you submit all your information and fees to them, and which schools you want to apply to and they do the rest. So Adam has been working on that and has officially applied to law school! Now we just have to wait. He is applying to 6 schools I think, so now we wait for acceptance or rejection letters from each of those schools, then we can look at all the factors that are important to us and make a decision as to where we spend the next 3 years. We are still staying with Adam's parents house, with as many visits up to see my parents as we can manage, and both families have been so nice and accommodating in letting us and our loud, insane boys stay with them. It has actually been really good bonding time for the grandkids and grandparents. Both sets have gotten to know both of the boys very well, and everyone is pretty attached at this point.
We are also waiting for a decision on a court case from last week. It should be a simple thing, and we are feeling very confident about it, all we are really asking is to be allowed to keep our current rights and to move to allow Adam to get in to law school.
We are waiting on our insurance company to process our change of address so that we can go see new doctors down here..... I need to do this pretty quickly because I have had some serious complications from my Chrones disease. It turns out I have an infected Polyp in my lower intestines and will need to have that removed after we get the infection under control.
We are waiting for an MRI on my neck because I still have a pretty abnormal amount of pain after my car accident, and we can't settle with the insurance until I know for sure what is going on and how or if it can be fixed.
Good things have also come to us the last few weeks. We traded in our truck, and sold the van that we deeply regretted ever buying and got a much nicer, very awesome Yukon. I have not liked a vehicle this much since we got rid of the Armada that I used to drive, and the payment is much lower than our truck payment was, so that is an awesome feeling.
Finding out about the infected polyp was a huge step for me, I have a hard time with unknowns, especially when it comes to my health. I lost 13 pounds over the course of 10 days. I could not eat at all. I think I had 2 yogurts and 1 string cheese during that time frame. If I could find a way to eliminate the pain of Chrones Disease I could market this fabulous weight loss program and get rich quick!
I have looked deep and assessed the fact that I have been very emotionally unstable lately. I still have a long way to go, my biggest problem right now is forgiveness. I have ALOT of anger and hurt feelings to a very few number of people. One of these people not only printed off pages to my blog to use against my husband in court, but also seems to have called hotels we have stayed at over the last year, and according to the hotel security and management pretended to be me in order to get detailed breakdowns of all of our bills to use against us in court. We were not really hurt by either of these things, but I feel violated and angry. I also struggle with anger towards another person who I counted as a close friend who has had some serious mood swings lately and one day is my best friend, and can't live without me, the next day acts like they don't even know my name. I think the solution here is to cut the toxic friendships out of my life and focus on the good ones that I have. I am lucky to have friends that love me and will stick with me through anything..... I need to focus on those people. I am pledging to go the the gym at least 3 times a week because I feel so much better about myself when I do..... it helps the mind, body, and soul.
I am going to be sure to not only tell, but show my husband every day that I love him and that he is my world. Sometimes I get caught up in the drama of life and forget to show him just how thankful I am for him.
I am sure that coming to terms with how I feel about religion and how I feel like I have lost god's presence in my life will be another thing I have to work on, but I can only work on so many things at once, so that is coming up on my list :)